Hi Everyone,
I've decided to continue blogging but not in the traditional way, you know me, I'm not one to follow a convention. I'm still performing, acting when I can, and trying, desperately trying to make people laugh at every attempt I can get. So nothing has changed for me in that regard, I'm still a ham and I love to eat it!
A lot has happened since I left New York. Before I left I had a going away party, I said that I was moving to Los Angeles to continue acting. At the time, I didn't have the courage to title my Facebook invite, "Moving home with my Parents". I knew in my heart that I was moving home, but I just couldn't be honest with myself. I was hurting, and reality was the last place I wanted to be. I didn't just break up with a boyfriend, I broke up with Manhattan along with all the people in it. It was an emotional break on many levels. My friends that I left are still my friends of course, but when you leave a place, no matter how hard you try to maintain connections, they fade, faces change, and the independent coffee shops that were once there, simply close. I left my 20's behind on the best Island in the US, that's the honest truth of it.
So, when I got home I did some soul searching, and some financial panicking, and I almost hog-tied my mother on more than one occasion. I decided that if living with my parents was my only housing option I would have to make the most of it. I saved money, did a play, juggled jobs and then found a great one; got into a master's level acting program, and then best of all TURNED THE OFFER DOWN TO PURSUE COMEDY! That was the hardest realization that I ever had to make. That I'm the funny girl, the clown, the crazy, the offensive, the NOT ingenue, and the NOT straight actress. I made the realization that I was put on this planet to make people laugh, finally, after all these years, it really hit me. Best decision I ever made.
Today, I'm living in Los Angeles, working on my stand-up, writing and best of all, taking classes at The Groundlings. I've decided that this is my moment, it doesn't matter how many people tell you that, it's only true when you really start to believe it and take action. So here it goes. For the next 12 weeks, I'm posting a new character. That's 12 characters in case you needed me to teach you math. Now that I've written it down, I just put myself under a contract to be creative, to create my own work. To really in all sincerity NOT GIVE A SHIT about what anyone else thinks of who I am and what I'm doing. Here is character #1-
Martha Winters.
Be kind to her, much like her creator, she's a bit of a head case.
Love to all and to all a good life!
Tess
